Didn't pan out
Mar. 17th, 2020 10:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
helenarasmussen87I'm still applying and applying for places, but it's looking grim. No job positions in BC have shown up yet. I'm sending my CV to Northern towns again. Im also not keen to be in Asia again, but if they're the ones calling, I should try.
I'm getting worried and anxious since I only worked a bit last year and I'm worried it might have messed up my chances in the pool. But then I do know other colleagues have taken a year and a half to get work so there's that. I do have references. But I still worry.
The pandemic isn't helping much so I have to remember that this isn't the best time, but it can be overcome. I mean, I did pick myself up in 2009 when it was much worse for me on a personal level.
Just gotta wait and see and keep trying.
I also feel more distant and more alone than before. Facing the unknown without back up sort of thing and feeling like I have to hide all of this. I'm gutted and tired and facing even worse uncertainty. And now the world has seemingly exploded and reflecting how I feel fairly often.
It's like all those years I worked to improve and how much I tried to have a stable life were for nothing. And I'm back to square one and time ran out.
But if I say anything, everyone gets anxious. And they have their own worries. Or maybe they're tired and dont care.
Right. Time to get up and pretend everything is fine.
I'm getting worried and anxious since I only worked a bit last year and I'm worried it might have messed up my chances in the pool. But then I do know other colleagues have taken a year and a half to get work so there's that. I do have references. But I still worry.
The pandemic isn't helping much so I have to remember that this isn't the best time, but it can be overcome. I mean, I did pick myself up in 2009 when it was much worse for me on a personal level.
Just gotta wait and see and keep trying.
I also feel more distant and more alone than before. Facing the unknown without back up sort of thing and feeling like I have to hide all of this. I'm gutted and tired and facing even worse uncertainty. And now the world has seemingly exploded and reflecting how I feel fairly often.
It's like all those years I worked to improve and how much I tried to have a stable life were for nothing. And I'm back to square one and time ran out.
But if I say anything, everyone gets anxious. And they have their own worries. Or maybe they're tired and dont care.
Right. Time to get up and pretend everything is fine.
